The physical and emotional

Daylight savings time. A chance to get back on the early morning wagon. And now that I'm feeling better (thanks antibiotics) I plan to get back out there for the 5:45am swim class.

Today went to two clinics: one put on by OCTC, the other, by NOVA. The NOVA one had me interested in joining a program to get my core in shape. It's be twice a week for three months. Only problem is my work schedule and my vacation. I'll sit on that until I figure out what to do.

This week was able to pull off 1 spin class and 1 "long" run. I am antsy from not being able to hold a rhythm. But that's in hindsight... I'm trying to move forward, knowing it takes time... and I have time before Wisconsin.

This coming week's schedule:
2-3 days swim
2 days of bike
4-5 days of run, one 12 mile run
2-3 days of yoga
2 days of weights
run with Snails Pace on Wed

On another more personal note...what's my problem this week?
A year ago my ex told me we needed to take a break from each other. He told me I had issues to work out and that I should see a therapist. He told me that because he thought I was jealous all the time. What he never seemed to see/understand is the actions he chose never allowed me to feel secure in our relationship. He constantly needed female attention and it needed to come from everywhere... his work, his family, our friends. It was always his goal to be the charmer, the one to grab the interest of the all the women in the room. And on top of that, he would do it in a way that neglected me. I always felt his desire for attention far outweighed my needs. If ever I talked with him about it, I was instantly a bad guy. I tried many approaches... asking to be involved to understand his need, supporting him at times to go on "girl's night out" without me, and simply being straight forward. What the therapist said a year ago is that the only problem I had was accepting all the blame in the relationship. He said since I was never jealous with previous boyfriends, that Doug's actions were something outside of my familiarity. His selfishness prevented him from listening to me. Anyway, I know this has nothing to do with my training, but this week was a depressing week for me. It consumed my thoughts and brought me down. And that always affects your motivation, eating patterns, and energy. Not only do you feel weak physically some weeks but also emotionally. Enough of this crap...

Looking forward to a good week!