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Sunday, June 24, 2007
Weeks 13, 14 & 15 - Hello, my name is Bitter Betty!
I remember this last time. I remember being exhausted, frustrated with my weight, frustrated that I can't go out and have fun with everyone else, too tired to have fun if I even find the time, literally NO time!!! My temper is short, my irritation is easy to spark, I'm feeling overwhelmed with commitments but too tired to do anything but complain or fly off the handle.
Today, on my long bike ride, I snapped at my training partner. I feel bad because it's not his fault that I'm tired and angry with the training. I got a flat, I almost took a dive in San Clemente because I'm too tired to get out of my clips for a stop sign, I was Bitter Betty complaining about everything... why would he want to ride with me for four hours and then run 45 mins. I feel really bad, I took the fun out of today, but I'm totally tapped out on enthusiasm for Ironman training.
We still have 9 weeks left. Those 9 weeks seem very far away and I'm not even looking at it as "In 9 weeks I get to do my Ironman", I'm seeing it as "In 9 weeks I can have my life back and do what I want to do!"
I've been struggling more than ever with my nutrition. Remember my note about being short tempered??? Try talking sense into me about nutrition! I get that my legs will get bigger with muscle, fine! But my waistline is also getting large. I've noticed in pictures I'm heavy and there is fat in places I'd prefer not to point out. What am I doing???
I've contacted two nutritionists after talking (ok, complaining) to everyone I know. We will see what they have to come back with. I know it will be expensive and (nutrition) will be yet ANOTHER thing to stress me out!
Work has been challenging. I've had a lot of responsibilities and been thrown in fast. All good and fine if I didn't have to figure things out as I went. I know this added stress is affecting my attitude and fatigue. But it's my livelihood so I can't be expected to "scale it back". I have been trying to protect myself and keep a life balance. It just stresses me out because life has to take second priority when a meeting is scheduled on my day OFF!!
Oh yeah, and ENOUGH of the traveling for work!!! If it's not hard enough to get all the workouts in when you have your scheduled Masters class, spin class and track sessions, how am I to do it when staying in hotel rooms or doing long hours on a set?? What a challenge!
Friends have been supportive but a simple invitation has me fried. I'd like to squeeze things in but at the end of the day, I'm just layering on an obligation that I can't make because I'm either tired, or another priority crept in. I am a lousy friend right now. I'm non responsive, uninvolved, and forgetful. I am having a hard time keeping up with things overall.
Family is awesome. I just wish I could spend more time with them.
Emotionally I'm a mess right now. The fatigue is just magnifying my feelings. Last night I was watching "where the heart is" with (one) glass of wine, and in tears! I just want to push everyone away. By my nature I figure if I strip everything away, I could potentially eliminate stress... but then I'm left with nothing.
So for now I'm plowing through this life experience. After all, I chose this adventure, I can't complain. And I certainly can't take it out on my friends and support crew!
Achievements Week 6/4 (traveled to LA for the week):
Mon: Swim (70 min)
Tues: Bike (70 min) & run (30 min)
Wed: nothing
Thurs: 5 miles
Fri: Off
Sat: Run 13.5 miles (110 min)
Sun: Bike ride 80 miles (315 mins) & run (45 min)
Achievements Week 6/11 (in LA Mon, Wed, Thurs):
Mon: Swim (70 min)
Tues: nothing
Wed: nothing
Thurs: nothing
Fri: Run (45 mins)
Sat: Run (60 mins)
Sun: Bike (110 min)
NOTABLY my worst week yet! Not week day workouts, and a poor performance on the weekend! I was lacking motivation and drive. Not to mention I'm tired from all this travel and being out of the office which just piles the work up for when I'm in the office... and in turn doesn't allow me to get out on time for key workouts!
Achievements week 6/18:
Mon: Swim (70 mins) & massage
Tues: Run (90 mins)
Wed: Swim (70 mins)
Thurs: nothing
Fri: nothing
Sat: Run (10 miles) & yoga (90 mins)
Sun: Bike (240 mins) & run (30 mins)
I took Monday off (much needed!) and tried to recharge. Then by Thursday I completely lost my drive. Then you read my breakdown on the bike with Patrick! YIKES! I miss Yoga, so I need to get that going again. It was nice this past Saturday relaxing and breathing!
So for next week, I need to pull it together. I mean I signed up for this, it's not anyone's fault but mine! And I knew Ironman training wasn't going to be a walk in the park! Deal with it and fix your attitude!
Week 6/25 goals:
Mon: Swim (70 min) & run (30 min) & Yoga (90 mins)
Tues: Spin (75 mins) & run (35 mins)
Wed: Swim (70 mins) & bike (60-90 mins)
Thur: Run (70-90 mins)
Fri: Run or swim (30 mins)
Sat: Run (80-100 mins) & yoga (90 mins)
Sun: Bike (210-270 mins) and run (35-40 mins)
Attitude adjustment and nutrition analysis!
Pull it together, Shannon!
Today, on my long bike ride, I snapped at my training partner. I feel bad because it's not his fault that I'm tired and angry with the training. I got a flat, I almost took a dive in San Clemente because I'm too tired to get out of my clips for a stop sign, I was Bitter Betty complaining about everything... why would he want to ride with me for four hours and then run 45 mins. I feel really bad, I took the fun out of today, but I'm totally tapped out on enthusiasm for Ironman training.
We still have 9 weeks left. Those 9 weeks seem very far away and I'm not even looking at it as "In 9 weeks I get to do my Ironman", I'm seeing it as "In 9 weeks I can have my life back and do what I want to do!"
I've been struggling more than ever with my nutrition. Remember my note about being short tempered??? Try talking sense into me about nutrition! I get that my legs will get bigger with muscle, fine! But my waistline is also getting large. I've noticed in pictures I'm heavy and there is fat in places I'd prefer not to point out. What am I doing???
I've contacted two nutritionists after talking (ok, complaining) to everyone I know. We will see what they have to come back with. I know it will be expensive and (nutrition) will be yet ANOTHER thing to stress me out!
Work has been challenging. I've had a lot of responsibilities and been thrown in fast. All good and fine if I didn't have to figure things out as I went. I know this added stress is affecting my attitude and fatigue. But it's my livelihood so I can't be expected to "scale it back". I have been trying to protect myself and keep a life balance. It just stresses me out because life has to take second priority when a meeting is scheduled on my day OFF!!
Oh yeah, and ENOUGH of the traveling for work!!! If it's not hard enough to get all the workouts in when you have your scheduled Masters class, spin class and track sessions, how am I to do it when staying in hotel rooms or doing long hours on a set?? What a challenge!
Friends have been supportive but a simple invitation has me fried. I'd like to squeeze things in but at the end of the day, I'm just layering on an obligation that I can't make because I'm either tired, or another priority crept in. I am a lousy friend right now. I'm non responsive, uninvolved, and forgetful. I am having a hard time keeping up with things overall.
Family is awesome. I just wish I could spend more time with them.
Emotionally I'm a mess right now. The fatigue is just magnifying my feelings. Last night I was watching "where the heart is" with (one) glass of wine, and in tears! I just want to push everyone away. By my nature I figure if I strip everything away, I could potentially eliminate stress... but then I'm left with nothing.
So for now I'm plowing through this life experience. After all, I chose this adventure, I can't complain. And I certainly can't take it out on my friends and support crew!
Achievements Week 6/4 (traveled to LA for the week):
Mon: Swim (70 min)
Tues: Bike (70 min) & run (30 min)
Wed: nothing
Thurs: 5 miles
Fri: Off
Sat: Run 13.5 miles (110 min)
Sun: Bike ride 80 miles (315 mins) & run (45 min)
Achievements Week 6/11 (in LA Mon, Wed, Thurs):
Mon: Swim (70 min)
Tues: nothing
Wed: nothing
Thurs: nothing
Fri: Run (45 mins)
Sat: Run (60 mins)
Sun: Bike (110 min)
NOTABLY my worst week yet! Not week day workouts, and a poor performance on the weekend! I was lacking motivation and drive. Not to mention I'm tired from all this travel and being out of the office which just piles the work up for when I'm in the office... and in turn doesn't allow me to get out on time for key workouts!
Achievements week 6/18:
Mon: Swim (70 mins) & massage
Tues: Run (90 mins)
Wed: Swim (70 mins)
Thurs: nothing
Fri: nothing
Sat: Run (10 miles) & yoga (90 mins)
Sun: Bike (240 mins) & run (30 mins)
I took Monday off (much needed!) and tried to recharge. Then by Thursday I completely lost my drive. Then you read my breakdown on the bike with Patrick! YIKES! I miss Yoga, so I need to get that going again. It was nice this past Saturday relaxing and breathing!
So for next week, I need to pull it together. I mean I signed up for this, it's not anyone's fault but mine! And I knew Ironman training wasn't going to be a walk in the park! Deal with it and fix your attitude!
Week 6/25 goals:
Mon: Swim (70 min) & run (30 min) & Yoga (90 mins)
Tues: Spin (75 mins) & run (35 mins)
Wed: Swim (70 mins) & bike (60-90 mins)
Thur: Run (70-90 mins)
Fri: Run or swim (30 mins)
Sat: Run (80-100 mins) & yoga (90 mins)
Sun: Bike (210-270 mins) and run (35-40 mins)
Attitude adjustment and nutrition analysis!
Pull it together, Shannon!
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